#but i'm mcfreakin' losing it
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You Don't See Me: Dojo Scene vs. Ruby's Breakdown
This episode was very powerful and was a long time coming. I don't have a lot of words in me to talk about it, but I did want to try and line up the parallels between these two scenes because the comparisons are very hard to ignore.
Lindsay Jones has gone on record multiple times stating that Ruby is someone whose "compartmentalization and internalization of her grief is what might eventually destroy her.” And we saw the dam break both figuratively (with Ruby's outburst) and literally (with the paper houses being flooded and washed away).
I had very few doubts in my mind about RG being endgame before this episode, but this volume continues to hammer it home despite, but also because of Oscar's absence. Ruby, who reached this breaking point by never feeling seen or supported by her team or her friends because there was always something else that had to take priority. Someone else who's feelings mattered more.
Ruby, who has only ever talked about her grief on screen without being interrupted once.
Oscar who was the only damn person to do it. To see through her mask and acknowledge just how hard this all is on her. I just. I gotta let the parallels speak for themselves.
Oscar: But this? Who would ask for this? - Ruby: Why do I have to be the leader anyway?
Ruby: If it had been me instead, I know they would have kept fighting too. No matter how dangerous it was. So that's what I choose to do. To keep moving forward. - Ruby: No time, right? Gotta get home! Gotta help Jaune! Gotta find someone who isn't just going to screw everything up! Gotta stay positive, right? Smiles all around!!
Ruby: We just have to press on and- Oscar: How can you be so confident? - Blake: Guys, I know things are bad but- Ruby: Shut up. Don't... do that. Just don't.
Oscar: How do you handle all of this? // How are you okay with any of this?! - Ruby: Why are you asking me? Because I'm the leader? Because I'm just supposed to have something to say? Cause I don't. I mean, why do I have to be the leader anyway? Why do I always have to be the one to pick people up?
Oscar: This must be really hard on her too... - Ruby: What about me?!
That last one paralleled to the new song lyric:
No, you don't see me anymore
Her friends and her team do care about her. I'm not arguing that. But none of them have been able to offer Ruby the support she's needed. None of them have been able to foster an environment where she feels safe enough to open up about these things. There have been a few times she tried but every single time she got cut off or interrupted by something more important or someone else's feelings who mattered more. She has been dealing with her own kind of loneliness all this time. All alone in crowded rooms.
Oscar was the only one that saw it right away. The only one that brought it up. That pushed her to talk about it. That has stood up for her time and time again when these instances keep happening.
And for now he's not around.
that! reunion! hug! is gonna! hit! like a! bus!!!!!!!!
#it's 2am#idk if this is coherent#but i'm mcfreakin' losing it#he sees her#HE SEES YOU RUBY#rwby#rwby v9#rwby v9 spoilers#ruby rose#oscar pine#rosegarden#analysis#rwby analysis#meta#rwby meta#chainalysis
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you ever stop and remember Edel in Princess Tutu saying, "May those who accept their fate be granted Happiness; may those who defy their fate be granted Glory," and go a little insane?
#princess tutu#my dash hit me with some Web talk from TMA and hemidemi mentioned the metafictional nature of the Web#and now it's all I can think of and I'm mcfreakin' losing it all over again
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Charles' "Abuse PTSD" stare vs his "Looking for Death's Arrival" stare
#dude how are we feeling#abuse#death#ptsd#charles rowland#screenshot#screenshots#parallels#text post#dbda#dead boy detectives#dead boy detective agency#dead boy detectives spoilers#stream dead boy detectives#renew dead boy detectives#character analysis#death of the endless#sandman#the sandman#sandman universe#i'm gonna mcfreakin lose it#the case of the devlin house#the case of the very long stairway
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This man personally invades my daydreams and makes me eat drywall
#i'm going to mcfreakin' lose it if I end up changing his haircut again#also yes I know I can't decide on a permanent design for his scars leave me alone.....#shiversverse#jonathan crane#scarecrow#my art
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anyone else feeling the reccourent fear that you're slowly drifing out of touch with reality, and that your perception/feelings/opinions/behaviors are becoming ungrounded by the context/state of the world around you, but you have no idea why or how, or how you'd even know if it were true or not?
Is anyone else experiencing that existential dread of creeping madness???
#today is surely a day#if I read somewhere that this is just another common symptom shared by chronic migraine havers#I'm gonna McFreakin' Lose It.
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BANG CHAN IS IN A SKIRT IN FUCKING MILAN STOP THE GODDAMN PRESS
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I got dumped onto stardew valley youtube by the algorithm, and I swear to god if I see one more video about Shane going "oh sweetie sweetheart poor dumb dumb child, you can't FIX him <3" I'm going to lose my fucking mind
maybe, MAYBE, I like -gasp- the story! maybe the player character is literally a completely silent statue with no discernable personality, and has no effect on ANY of the characters or their growth! maybe I'm really effected by the emotional gut punches! maybe I just like to see characters change over time!
how about that
#I cannot be complaining about this shit in the year of our lord and savior 2024#but they keep being dumped into my recommended and I'm going to mcfreakin lose it#stardew valley#sdv shane
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ok but you just know frank is gonna love it. because he lives just to play music and he's in his favorite band
Anon, I love you dearly, but why would you do this to me?
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I am begging yall to learn the difference between queerbaiting and queer subtext TT_TT
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holy FUCK the Dread
#why am I like this holy shit#why is it so hard for me to talk to people I'm gonna mcfreakin lose it#tuxiatalks
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time for one of my regular periods of despair that george donaldson's albums are so hard to find online.
#i do have them on cd.#BUT i can't just go around using them you see!!#bc the world in my mind is signed!!!! by him!!! the year before he died!!!#it is one of my prized possessions and i'm still so grateful i got to meet him#anyway tantrum over i'm just like i NEED to listen to the white rose rn or i'm gonna mcfreakin lose it#morgan rambles#my ramblings#george donaldson#celtic thunder#ct#morgan lives up to her old url
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Happy fucking June huh
#I love being alive in the 'freedom' country#love seeing fucking ass flags everywhere for 'freedom' country#where everything is controlled by 9 geriatric people in flop wizard robes#with life appointments who can't be removed#and get wined and dined by Skull & Bones every week#its very cool and freedom#I'm gonna mcfreakin lose it!!!
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IS IT JUST ME OR ARE THE PAPERS THEIR NAMES ARE WRITTEN ON THE SAME COLOR AS THEIR INDIVIDUAL AURA COLORS
#rwby#rwby9#it's subtle but it's there#magenta for ren#green for oscar#pink for nora#red for pyrrha#I'M GONNA MCFREAKIN LOSE IT
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well i'm so overwhelmed i just burst into tears ✌️
guess i'm not getting anything else done today. i have Reached My Limit.
#the bookkeeping has been untouched for a full month and i'm in the middle of untangling it#i'm also answering all the phones and draling with anyone who walks in#i'm also driving someone to various places periodically so i have to straight-up leave the office every 2 hours#and the stoplight between here and there is apparently being worked on so every trip involves a massive detour#and i was just told that ppl are going to be by at various times to pick up some things and sign a piece of paperwork i know nothing about#and last i heard at least one of them was an antivaxxer#and then i have to go check someone's pool after work#and i'm also monitoring the bakery for a cake i promised to try and pick up for this weekend#anyway i feel like i can't adequately hold onto a single fucking thought and i'm 2 seconds away from dropping all these balls#if the phone rings again i'm gonna start biting people#i am. Stressed.#i've been trying very very hard all day and i think that's it for me. i think i'm done.#can't even have a good nervous breakdown because people keep calling and coming in and i have to switch to Cheerful Customer Service Malay#i'm gonna mcfreakin lose it
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holding out for an early hs2 update this weekend
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